2lbs baby

That's right,
After yesterday,
I lost 2lbs,
That puts me at a beautiful 98lbs.

I was so ecstatic when I got on the scale,
I couldn't believe after almost two weeks,
The number finally budged,
And in the direction I wanted.

I'm still writing my thoughts down,
In my small journal ever chance I get.
It's filling up pretty fast though,
Which I suppose is a good thing, or bad?

Tonight is date night with T,
And I'm having a ton of anxiety;
Mostly because I'm starving,
But don't want to mess up my progress.

So something that you don't know about me,
Is that I have a slight addiction to scratch tickets.
Well I was playing a brand new one that just came out,
And I ended up winning 500 bucks on it!

So needless to say,
I'm treating T out to dinner and a movie.
He does so much for me,
That I just want to show him a little gratitude.

So far today my food intake has been 290,
My exercise has been 412,
Which makes my net;
-122cal for the day.

So dinner shouldn't be too much of a nightmare,
I'll allow myself to eat,
Also because I've taken 9 laxies today,
Which I know is terrible for me.

T and I went to the gym this morning,
There's this girl there,
I'll call her Blondie.
Wow is she perfect.

She is tall,
She is skinny,
She has perfect hair,
And a perfect body.

Blondie was on the stair stepper when I arrived,
I got on the stride machine where I thought I was doing well.
Until she got on the stride machine a few down from me,
And was on there the rest of the 45min I was there.

She was going faster than me,
Burning way more calories than me.
But she's weird,
She was smiling the whole time she was on it.

I can't help but wonder if she is "like me"
But how do you approach someone,
That you suspect might share an ed with you?
"Hey, are you anorexic too?"

Anyway, I am always watching Blondie,
She is everything that I want to be.
Or in a way, she kinda reminds me of;
The way that I see Ana in my head.

Maybe that is why I'm drawn to her.
Are there girls at your gym,
That you are constantly,
Comparing yourself to?

I hope this post finds you all well.
Lots of love,
XOXO Katie