I just read over my very first post on this blog. It was a bit over a year ago and I was in Tennessee spreading my brother's ashes. In that post I was talking about how just two weeks before my doctor told me that I only had a year to live. Well here I am, and what a hell of year it's been.
I am happy that I lived another year, but I'm disappointed that I haven't made any progress in my eating disorder. I'm only 3lbs heavier than I was when I started this blog. And that's after the fact I made it all the way down to a deadly 81lbs. T and I have experienced a lot of issues over this past year. Mostly because of my eating disorder or working at the club. I am so lucky that I've had him here by my side over the course of this last year.
Thank you all so very much for all your support on my post yesterday. I was feeling pretty shitty about myself after the sushi incident, but all of your comments lifted my spirits. The Halloween party was pretty decent. Except I drank way too fast on an empty stomach and got drunk pretty quickly. I threw up a bit in the bathroom, but there was one chick who threw up all over herself and the kitchen floor. It was pretty nasty.
Today has been an ok day so far. My youngest son woke me up at 7:30 this morning. So I started cleaning the house. Got that done in a couple hours, took my friend back home, came back and we had an early dinner. We ordered from a sandwich place and when I ordered my food I specifically told them no mushrooms(I can NOT stand mushrooms.) Get my sandwich and of course it had mushrooms on it. So I ate a small bit of my broccoli and cheese soup (about 75cal). With my one piece of sushi(58cal), which was not purged, and my bowl of cereal(200cal) this morning, I am at about 333cal for the day. Not bad. I haven't decided if I am going to keep the soup down. I'm experiencing the feeling of being full. Ugh.
I am so excited for tomorrow. It's my mother's birthday and she is coming up to spend the day with me. I really hope she likes her gifts. I put a lot of thought into them. So I'm going to spend the rest of this evening making her birthday cake and watching football. I hope all is well with everyone. Lots of love.
XOXO Katie
I swear no party is complete without some girl throwing up all over herself. Always one girl... Hope your mom's birthday is AMAZING! Xo
ReplyDeleteYou're alive at the end of a year, and that's something to be proud of.
ReplyDelete100th post... what a wonderful milestone for you and your blog, Katie. I am blessed I met you in this blogging journey. Advanced happy birthday to your mom! Enjoy your time with her! ♡ :-)
ReplyDeleteI was a little bit amused because of that girl, but I agree with the comment above. No party is complete without some chick throwing up on herself. I'm glad I went to the party with you, and that I got to hang out with you. I hope you an your mom have a good time today, and that she likes her gifts
ReplyDeleteI hope you have a good day today. Don't let Ana ruin it. <3
Ok, really, how have I not found your blog before?? Well, after going back and reading a lot...I feel the need to envelop you in a huge hug. I also watched your youtube video, which was very brave to post, I hope you've received nothing but positive feedback, Well, congratulations on still being here. That's an accomplishment I hope your doctor would be proud of...reading your first post broke my heart. But now, hey, you're getting up to clean, taking care of your kids, going to parties to get drunk...I feel like that's more than some people. Reading more into your blog, I'm getting to know your story. Take care hon. If you were wondering the poem I read at the slam, here it is. http://prettyliesxfakesmiles.blogspot.com/2013/02/this-is-war.html
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