I need a wake up call

This nausea is ruining my life,
I was in the hospital again yesterday,
With an IV and a ton of nausea medicine.

They don't know what's going on with me,
But recommended I see a GI doc,
So I called them this morning.

It's the same place I went with my colon issues,
Last summer when we thought I had cancer,
My appointment is tomorrow.

I plan on going in there with complete honesty,
Telling them about my laxative abuse,
And how severe my eating disorder is.

T found me passed out on the bathroom floor,
I couldn't keep anything down yesterday,
Not even water.

I was miserable,
And I was supposed to be spending time
With my mom.

Instead she came and sat with me in the hospital,
I love her so much,
And T too.

That's why something has to change
I have to get well before I start school,
Or I'm going to miss a lot of days,
From being too weak to stand up for hours at a time.

I was literally begging God to take me yesterday
That's how sick I was,
Today is just as a bad.

This morning I bought some pills,
That people with motion sickness take.
I've already taken two with no relief.

Ok that's enough of my complaining,
I hope that you're all doing well,
Lots of love,
XOXO Katie